I have fallen for them only to find out they don’t feel the same way .
But they have said such things that cause feeling to come alive in me
Flirting with them and speaking in terms as though we have already spoken with our bodies
I need help
Mentally because searching to be pleased physically only causes me pain and hurt
Then it comes to nights like this when i begin to think and wonder
How did this happen?
How did i get here?
Why does my flesh want to be held?
None of these questions are good for me
Then i remember my life is built from this lie i failed to leave
So i am deceived by me