Deception

I have fallen for them only to find out they don’t feel the same way .
But they have said such things that cause feeling to come alive in me
Flirting with them and speaking in terms as though we have already spoken with our bodies
I need help
Mentally because searching to be pleased physically only causes me pain and hurt
Then it comes to nights like this when i begin to think and wonder
Why?
How did this happen?
How did i get here?
Why does my flesh want to be held?
None of these questions are good for me
Then i remember my life is built from this lie i failed to leave
So i am deceived by me

One of my poems “Im still here”

Now should i say im still here because you really don’t believe me
Or should i say it because that would be the ring in your ear
After you pack up and leave me
Remind you im still here
Should i shut the door behind you and send it in a text
Then be glad your my ex
Or grab you by your hand say im sorry and that you shouldn’t fear
Cause im still here
Would my heart become like water and let things flow
Better yet like the rock underneath
Im still here but your very body every night is out of reach
Talking to your friends but you fail realize that you became mine after i talked a good game
Like saying ill go broke just to wake up everyday to see the diamonds in your eyes
You cant say i lied
Cause im still here
I can clearly see that your present suction
Is suspending the time from our relationship
That would become a future eruption
As i stop and stare
Wondering what else to do
When im still here
I can go deep
I mean real deep and tell you so many sweet things
But that would and will only
Fulfill my taste
Leave your mind erased
And when i say im done
You would have hard times breathing standing in one place
That somewhat shows me
Your not wanting to let go
Your mind wonders out of control
And after all these years
Its evidence im still here
Now should i say im still here because you really don’t believe me
Or should i say it because…….

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